Big Big Changes.

I haven't really posted in here in a long time.. and the reason is that other things have been consuming my thoughts and time.

But here I am, been awake for 3 hours and it's too late to sleep now. So, I thought I could ramble on and on in here till it's time to get moving.

It's Mother's Day soon.. and this time, I'm not expecting anything. I know that what ever DOES happen on that day is just the obligatory 'just to shut me up' thing.. and that's not really what I need. Instead of some meal, I'll drag the man's butt to my beauty salon and make him pay for something I'm going to enjoy BY MYSELF. Or maybe with my own mother.

So for mother's day, please.. just get lost! I am a mother the other 364 days of the year. Just give me one .. just one day of leave!

Anyways .. so dear husband, if you are reading this (rofl) now you know what I want.

Then.. comes our anniversary. This is going to be.. just awesome. :) I can already see it. A card .. probably with a heart on it.. which will probably read "To my Valentine" or something. And his idea of a weekend get-away will be an over night camping trip with the kids. A trip I will have to pack for and prepare for. A trip that would consume more preparation time than actual camping time. Ah well. At least there is a lovely walk around there..



Mother's Day next year will be very different..

Big changes are happening..
..and I'm quitting some addictions and habits..
my addiction to bad food, or too much food,
my addiction to biting my nails - a habit I've had since my memory can take me back..
my habit of trying to please people who don't give a shit about pleasing me..
my habit of living in bed clothes,
my habit of spending my every cent on everyone but myself.

Some addictions and habits I intend to keep.
Like my addiction to the internet.
My addiction to my friends.
My new habit of keeping in touch with my family, especially my dad.
My addiction to music.
My addiction to feeling good and to the people that matter.



This coming month, I have set a few targets.
I'm going to get employed.
I'm going to reach my 10kilo weightloss milestone.
I'm going to paint my fingernails for the very first time.
I'm going to set a plan for the month of June which will include leaving my dead beat husband and marrying the man of my dreams.
I'm also going to stop day dreaming - but I feel my last one should have been included in my 'quitting addictions list'.


Summer of 08'.. here I come!